update..

salam...
i think i've recovered a bit..

my appetite?...
getting better..

study?..
lepas ni nak kne wat tutorial math...

health?...
better but still...

i hope i get an e-mail from 'you'...

thats all..
salam...

I feel...

I dunno wether i'm juz paranoid abot everything or what..My health is not in a very good condition lately...I feel cold n then hot again...hot..cold...when i feel cold..it was extremely damn cold...when I feel hot...i think i could fried an egg...Its frighten me a little...truly I do...

I still couldn't find any friend/s yet..I mean the one dat i can hang out wif...me and my roomate?..ok jer...me n my classmate?...the only thing that we talk about is study or tutorial or lecture or amali...other than that?...i talk to myself...and its driving me crazy...me talking to myself?...am I nuts?...yeah..I need to answer that myself...

My classmate asked me..."awak ni memang sorang2 ea?"....dalam hati cakap...as u can see...but i said.."tak kisah pun"...sometimes its true...sometimes its not...

Study?...Alhamdulillah..

Makan?...i'm losing my appetite...

Why?...

I dunno....

Help?

Naaaa..not now...I still can handle it...

Stubborn?...

thats me...

Mira!!

Ika!!

yes?

let us help u...

no thanks...

things gonna b okay...

rite...

drop the subject..
gotta go...
salam...

Kembalinya Mak Mok ke Rahmatullah..

My Mak Mok baru meninggal dua hari lepas..on sunday...masa mula2 tau tu...my mom said that she on da way back to kampung...my mak mok was admitted to hospital..i dun have any idea that she was admitted to hosp..my mom said that the doctor asked us to brought her home...And i think i noe why...I asked my mom wether she wants me to go home or not..n she said.."tak payah lah..ika belajar je"...at that time..i dunno what to say...i noe that my mom wanna cry...so i asked her to do me one favour.."kirim salam ika kat mak mok"...my mom said " mak mok dah tak sedar lah"..I said "kirim salam jer"...my mom said " InsyaAllah"...then she hang up...

5.58 PM..I got a text from my sis...
Salam...ika, mak mok dah meninggal dunia

the first thing i said..innalillahhiwainnailaihirojiun...I asked my sis wether she wants me to be there..n she said that my mom said tak pe..ika belajar jer...

I dunno how i felt that time..I have the chance to met her before i came here..I took a few pic of her..Aaahh..I forget to mention...she had breast cancer...she remembered that I going to matriculation here in Kedah..she remembered me..but do I remember her?...-_-

Last year..My grandpa...this year my aunt..who next?..perhaps it'll be..aaahhhh!

Let her rest in peace ika...let her go...

Al-Fatihah...

salam...